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Life tells the biggest lies of all, And draws wages from itself Twisting Illusions crack start
23 Sep 1991 SACian before Thespian now however long it seemed
Counting every star With hands grasp tightly Wishing the fire would never burn out I called, I screamed, I yelled Not once did you turn Now with my faded voice I longed for illusions Even if it's a lie, Tell me what i want to hear Lies OUT
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Monday, 31 January 2011 Dearest,It's amazing how far we've come since year 1 till now. Like I've said many times, you were NEVER on my list of friends' whom I'll ever want to associate with at the beginning. Proud and annoying were words that I would describe you as. However, when I got to know you more, things changed. You're like the Sun, ever so warm. I was mesmerised and attracted to you. You were the opposite ends of everything about me. The world you're living in is so different from mine. Common knowledge of yours were foreign to me! When I said I didn't know what good points you had, it was because I didn't know how to put it into words. I was never good as expressing myself in words, which was probably the reason why I made you upset or hurt. I really didn't mean it. You're talented, bloody talented in fact, you're sensitive towards others and is someone who can be depended on. You're just you that I fell for. To me, you're perfect. I don't care what others say about you or what flaws you have, but to me, you're perfect. Because you're perfect to me, I don't know what you would see in me. Holding hands with you was short but I loved that moment. When I hyper-ventilated, you hugged me, and that touched me badly. It's been quite a while since you're that warm with me ever since school re-opened. I missed you badly, I swear I do. Your very presence itself makes me happy. You were there when I needed you. You cheered me up when I was down. For that, I was really touched. Words can't express my emotions. I'm sorry for not being there when you needed me most. I'm sorry that I wasn't all that you expected. I'm sorry for being selfish and insensitive most of the times. I'm sorry for not understanding you. When I was with you, time passed fast. So fast that it seemed so short. Now that I'm at this stage, I wonder if things would have been different if I had chose to be more sensitive towards you or to understand you more? Nevertheless, I'll keep my feelings for you and treasure it. I don't know how our lives would be like in the future. Whether or not our paths would cross again, we'll never know. However, at this very moment, I can clearly say that I love you. I'll always be behind your back. If you ever need somone, I'll be there. If you're ever lonely, I'm never too far away, I'm only a phone call away. If you ever need help, I'm ready to help. If you're ever troubled, I'll be there to share your problems. I'll always look out for you. The time we've spent together may be short, but thank you for allowing me into your life, experiencing the joy and sorrow you go through. I am really blessed and fortunate that you're the very first person that I fell for. Our path together might not have been the smoothest one, but it was sure the most worthwhile one for me. Thank you. I know that you definitely won't see my blog and it's a pity that you won't ever know my thoughts, but I want to say again that I'm sorry for ever upsetting or hurting you. And, thank you for being there when I needed you, and for accepting me. For me to be saying this, I think I've cried at least a litre of tears. I love you, dearest. Samantha. |
