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it's all around
Life tells the biggest lies of all, And draws wages from itself Twisting Illusions crack start
23 Sep 1991 SACian before Thespian now however long it seemed
Counting every star With hands grasp tightly Wishing the fire would never burn out I called, I screamed, I yelled Not once did you turn Now with my faded voice I longed for illusions Even if it's a lie, Tell me what i want to hear Lies OUT
David Esther Tay Hui Shuang Jasmine Foo Jingle Bells Justina Gay Kel Lim Kel Relationshits Leon Lynn Rachel Sherri Chong Serene Skye Wendy 曲翔之 Credits Given Layout By: Trina |
Saturday, 4 June 2011 Here's life: When you start the day wrong, it will definitely go wrong for the rest of the day.Yesterday, no matter how perfect things try to turn out to be, it just go downhill. I appreciate the people who supported me when I was down n such. I really. I am lost of words to say since I have too many things to say, a lot of things to complain and many things to keep. I was really upset after our quarrel. We can't even hold a proper conversation now. It gets offhand and would just turn out into some firing session whereby we argue. Just before my exams (everyday), we would argue. I think I did told her off once saying that arguments would be the last thing I need before my exams to affect my concentration. Now it's before work. I tried to keep my mood up during work but it was just impossible. I smile and laugh but my colleagues who had seen me genuinely happy, they could tell that I wasn't myself. And, they took extra care of me. Nice! They would walk pass me, "Are you okay?" and my manager dropped me a message to ask if I was alright since I was out of myself. I wanted to keep things out of my head so I just worked. Volunteered any possible work. Oh, a chair landed on me in the process. Haha! Took wrong orders and broke cups~ So not me, right? I was exhausted. Knocked out the moment I got on the van. Just woke up at 3.30pm. My head, back and knee were hurting yesterday, but it's not much of a big deal. (Usual occurrence). I won't cry and I won't break just yet. I had cried once in front of you but that's it. I will make it appoint that there won't be a second time unless the situation is a major one. I will smile and lift my head to walk. You can say all you like about me and I won't mind because I don't see the need to ever defend myself. No point. You once questioned me of being someone with least words right? So, I will keep to my words and be someone of least words. Just smile. Yup, my energy is really drained and low now. For a person like me who has a naturally high energy, times like these makes me feel really down, slow and aging. I am mentally, physically, emotionally and psychology tired and stressed. Screw it! Really, SCREW IT! Change a day... Start a new day...
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